evening,my dear ladies and gentlemen. have you given up before?or let go of something so important?many times,we tell our good friends,hey dont give up.but in another situation,we tell them,hey i think its best for you to let go.let go,give up.aren't they the same meaning?think about it. mannn.im on the edge of giving up on something that i'd hoped for for an extremely long time.yes,my own faults get in the way ever so often.well,thats how life is supposed to be right?you can never escape problems. alright,just like the two lyrics i've posted,listen to the lyrics properly.they kinda contradict each other,just like us.

well,sorry my foot sorry.yeah, i know,sorries are meant to be accepted,but are you sincere?can sorries jsut be accepted like this?without any consequences?no.right?come on,someone,deny that fact.from tomorrow on,only the servers,my school mates,or the 17yr old bros are to contact me through any means.noone else.no matter how close you are to me,you were to me.ok,the song -all the small things- just struck me.u ahve to know every small thing counts man.especially in today's world,a small thing you do,or didn't do,counts alot.go and reflect.

i waited for you.ok,that you stood for a few people.i think about three.unfortunate huh?three people,supposedly important to you,just left you to rot like this?i didnt had to put in effort man,i could've just go on with other plans.do things more worth while.but no,i chose friends above those.and yet,the result drilled some regrets in me.its sad.

im sorry this post is moody.but im not moody.the post is.im just speaking facts,and nto abusing the reasons for having blogs.im just writing down my feelings.even as i type,things that im supposed to say here are slipping away.today was a little unbelievable,but i have to tell myself,hey emmanuel,believe it.its reality.its not the first time.i had always hung on to hope.right?

i wish no girls,except relatives,or any other people that are not close to me,to msg,call,or talk to me in any ways from tomorrow.have i done or said anything wrong yet?no.i have not judged anyone,nor said anything sinful.my cool is still on.have not lost it yet,and am not gonna lose it.

have you ever sacrificed for a particular someone,we dont speak about three people in one day yet,and that someone doesnt realise it?or nothing came back to you.nothing happened.dont think that im trying to say you must repay people for their sacrifice for you.but im sure you've felt that way before.its unpleasant.yeah.it is.

ah,im skipping dinner.ahah.oh,ya,just remembered another point.have you ever tried sacrificing for someone,again,and tried to make things work,but all the person does is say -im lazy- or -i'll try- but in fact,that someone dont try it full heartedly?im not saying im the greatest person here.but,im sure again,u've felt that way before.and in the end,ur plans,ur willing sacrifices all gone to waste.and they cant even find time to reflect on your positive side.and all your previous sacrifices seem like a pile of dung to them once you do something wrong.and they'll remember that something wrong you did for the rest of their life btu not the something good you did.am i not right?ah,i guess these people are in our lifes for a reason.but lets not judge them,nor gossip.

what else?ah,regarding something small that happened.hhaa.yeah.let me give you a situation.you are msging your friend k?msg msg.a normal good friend would check the phone constantly to see if there's a reply.am i not right?ah well.some people just are cold towards other people.agree?you should.

ok i think i should end here.i wont be moody,though,there are people who get moody and think you had a perfect day.the feeling is just unpleasant.but i will try my best not to get moody.

i want you all to smile after reading this.yeah?nope,you're not on candid camera or gags for laughs.but just smile.and love the people you have around you.add more joy and love into this world yeah?

smile!

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remaind unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that


It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

I'm frightened at night and the wind has a roar
It seeps through the hall and from under the door
Like the shit that was said
I can't take it that well
I give and I give and I give and I give and I'm still
Lost and hurt and bone thin from the love that's been starved
I know it got close but I'm sure it's too far
From the point of suspense, we know it should be
The end of that part of our favorite movie
When the guy grabs the girl and gives her his hand
Says take me away from this torturous land
Cause the grave is set up, the hole that I dug
I gave and I gave and I gave and I gave you my trust
Like the time that we kissed and you gave me a lie
To add to the scene you pretended to cry
But I'm here and I'm cool, the way that it is
Just give me a chance and I'll try to forgive

And I don't know
And I can't guess
If it's gonna be OK
But now my last wish
Is that you do this with me
Kiss me here and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do it for me now

I've really had it with the rain of the tears
The predictable storm that has come every year
And it sneaks in from shore with a bat in its hand
I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I can't
You're a thief and a witch but I love you to death
You steal my heart and curse under your breath
But the one thing that I can most willingly prove
That when you are gone I'll be fine without you

And I don't know
And I can't guess
If it's gonna be OK
But now my last wish
Is that you do this with me
Kiss me here and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do it for me now?

Now just hold on, hold on to me
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me

so let mercy come and wash away what I've done! ;) ok,today's plane's still a blurr.not sure yet.i just awoke not long ago.

im waiting for someone's call to confirm something,if she cant make it,i guess its time for plan B.haha.just hope desmond come back from town before nigthfall.i planned to have a movie with someone.haha.and my 'bro's' birthday is coming.but it falls on HER school day,and the day before my A maths prelim.HOW?!saturday im gonna bash my bro man.haha.

aiyo aiyo waht song is playing on the radio.haha.oh,no more sorrows.shiok ah,linkin park abit crazy in new album.chester's mohawk ah,woo,i can tell that kid there riding the bike to cut this hairstyle,also can.(ok,that was inside joke,only the servers soccer team would know.hahaha)

tonight i want soccer.but should i play?hmmm.yeah.i should.but i will peng san for sure if the same group of unknown people play for us.basket,that day,play their team against our own chruch players plus a couple of unknowns too,(my team no one from church except frank),THEY SUCK!that guy really think the court's a soccer field.the way he cross.he think what,riquelme at the other end gonna control the ball ah?relax a bit la.firstly,there is onli one short malay dude upfront,even if he manage to head neatly,he was at the corner,who to support?for aylwin to turn around and score an own goal is it?it was pathetic.we onli scored one.the next closest was me hitting the pole.damn.SO many times that BECKHAM tried to cross.i was freakingly open,SO many occasions.HURR,everytime i think of that team,i siao alreadi.realli.you know who made the back line?on the right was me,cuz my left was sprained.the rest of the backline were ah bengs.ah,all lesser piercings than me la.HAHAHAH.at first i tot they fierce fierce type.but their soccer sense better than that beckham.thou they anyhow kick.onli successful when they pass to me close range.the substitute the keeper for another ah beng,damn,the ball was right in front of his palms,but he saw bradley laughing and got scared,and let that crouch header in.wa lao.i almost died of internal anger.i hate people to tell me to go up,all the way up.come on,singapore has no beckhams,even if u are better than him,i am not a drogba who can chest the ball nicely,or control with foot like riquelme,or header like klose,WA!irritated la.ahhaha..now 3am,stomach hungry.i never eat since 3am.ok,thats another inside joke.but early morning,i shall calm myself down.that beckham,if today he play,i swear i'll go the other team.

hello you want slow or fast and noisy song?hahah.when my time comes,forget the wrong that i've done.help me leave some reasons to be missed.(: forgetting,all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well.pretending,that someone else can save me from myself.i cant be who you are ): awww.haahahha..

ok,i kept laughing to myself during lunch in front of parents,they thought i've gone mad.and i covered up by saying harry potter book funny what.and that JK Rowling is a joker,she made a joke in the story.hmm is that true?i just find her incredibly woo,her mind is really broad.

saw two small malay girls digging their noses away in the train.what a marvelous sight.first the older one dig,then the younger one,then both.woo.haha ok u neednt know this,but,just for entertainment.hahah.

sia la,my tuition downstairs,the escalator there,one indian kid talk to me.lucky not in tamil.two kids playing at the escalator.the indian ask me-excuse me are you going for the tuition?- i said ya.then he pointed at his friend and said this guy dont let me go,he bully me.-ah,the problem is,young kid,i tink we're heading for different tuitions.he might be from st gabs pri,hahah.the badge familiar.either st gabs or monfort la.haha.

ok,sth dramatic happened at tuition.haha,teacher do my qn,got it wrong.den i say,cant start with zero right?den she -oh ya hor!- she wanna step swing hand,u know,when u frustrated with urself?yeah that movement.then her pencil really flew out,hit the photocopying machine.gave me a hell shock of my life.den i kept laughing.den she say i know better all.woo scary.hahah.

ok i will change my song to tiger lily,people.hope u enjoy.had this inspiration in the train,was listening to it,and imagined me and someone sing it in duet.hahaha.at feast day or sth.ah,guess it wont happen.(:


love is going out to those who had been there for me,especially at the darkess moments(:thanks for cheering me up always.three cheers for my cheerers!hmmm.ok la,u understand that sentence can alreadi(:


thanks desiree for donuts that day!hahahah.(:


i'm strong on the surface,not all the way through.

just bought linkin park new album.yeah i kknow im kinda slow.but why they turn so emo):haha.so touching,the songs.after every song in the lyrics book got explanations and stuff.awww.hahaha.-the sun will rise for you.the sun will set for you- WHY THEY MUST SING THIS LINE.??!!reminds me of sth.haiz.hahaha.had tuition.ahd engl prelim,talked cock for english.paper one and two,both also anyhow write.thanks to my sudden flu.basket everytime lidat.normally happen during chinese paper,now no chines,change to english.ehhh..should i go p3 camp?someone say will teach me A maths there.u think so?i doubt so.HAHAHA.and nana banana will be there,so u think i can even open my book?haiyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo.tou tong!head pain!kepala sakit.abunehneh.HHAHAHA!mike and chester dont make me cry.hahaha.ok ok sounds so gay.aiyo.compo.wrote alot of crap.memories of my life camp,and i wrote them.ahaha.


i hate life destroyers.i hate them,i hate u.

no la i didnt write that.ahhhhh.i know someone wont have time for me la.dont ask me who.i wont ask myself who.two people are silently driving me crazy,thou i sound happy and all on the phone.its different inside man.its errupting!no school till next thurs.shiok.and yet,im sure that someone wont have time.she;ll have school,she'll have celebrations.she'll be too lazy.u name,she will do it.hahaha.ok,tell u all sth.nicolette say wanna meet on friday.i bet u she wont rmb.on friday night i will blog,if i rmb.telling u if she did ask me out.

time to go secret blog!-winks- GO CHELSEA!

ah damn.my post deleted sial.haha. HELLO there!smile!everyone smile!i don care if you're angry,sad,hurt,emo,happy,excited,overjoyed.just smile!make the world a better place and make it shine with all ur shiny teeth.(:hahah.

ok just had ss today.i duno if i did well or not.hahah.i know i write till my right hadn scream for mercy.hahah.oh ya,my paper,i tie like shit,my fren collecting paper laugh at me all.VINCENT!hahah!basket.i tink my paper most qiam chai.at first i finish,look around,all still doing.den i relac,shiok shiok.tie paper.den my form teacher say must tie separately.haha WT-!!haha.i tear here tear there.cuz no scissors.hahah.den i anyhow poke poke,vincent laugh all.poke ah,the hole so big,then tear again!WOOHOO!hahahah.tahts it balls.tear the whole thing!ahha no la.i'll tear myself if i tear the whole paper.hahaha.

ok,whole of ytd talk with SOMEONE,mouth almost dropped after that.someone broke my code!AH!):hahaha.ok let me tell u my dream last night.damn.

those of u that had been reading my post since last yr,should hear sth similar and familiar.HAHAHA.rmb i used to dream of war?gun spoil all?hahah!TODAY AGAIN!hahah wait wait.today got combo.bonus.special edition.limited edition dream.u name it,i have it.HAHA.ok first,dreamt of this place.was it restaurant again?hmm.not sure.with my classmates from school.i know got damian,nicholas all.AHAHH.adam there also.den we talking.toilet quite far away,must come out of te restaurant all.ok,we went toilet,after awhile,damian nicholas went again.came back,told me sth sick.then i went there alone.on the way,this ah beng with two ah lians walk past.AHHAHAH!shhh!dont laugh yet.then all one by one walk past stare,i stare back,the last ah lian,stare all the way,then she say some ah lian words la.wanna fight,then the ah beng in front with the ah lian wanna fight.haha ok then dunno what happen.i ended up int he toilet.my eyes played tricks on me.then ok scene changed to war.(again) ): i was with i tink four people taking shelter at a playground.it was like im in a game.my sub-machine gun was SO small!then the trigger spoil one!cant press!so hard!den from where i am,i(u know in games u roll ur mouse in snipe right?) snipe la,at the building.the building got three guards walking around.i dunno if its friendly or enemy.so i ask my buddy for assurance."hey are those enemies or what?"he look,yeah.i squeeze my damn trigger so so so hard,so many bullets fired,ahahha,dunno got hit or not,cuz i dive to where my buddy was.scared la.then suddenly from behind me got commotion.some one down!then i walked back,pick up the dead soldiers gun.haha,i happy,i tot sniper.i pick up.it was a tranquilizer.WHAT ON EARTH is a soldier doing with a tranquilizer during war?!damn.onli one bullet.den i dunno can snipe or not.ok,normally u wanna adjust sniper sharpness,its where the snipe is right?i roll the thing,DAMn,the bullet flew.so no bullet.suddenly,on the right wing,RAINING tranquilizerz darts.haha.so as i just shot my one and only dart,i did sth stupid.haha.that enemy shooting forever,like endless supply of darts,really,in a straight line,hitting the playground slide onli.so,my gun got hole la,den i stuck my gun in the straight line of darts,hook the darts one by one.den collect.ahahaha.!HAHAH!damn!like in war so free lidat.haha.den i dunno what happen la.woke up i tink.then told SOMEONE.that SOMEONE laugh.ahhaha.scary balls!damn sway,first gun spoil,then shot my one and onli dart.all my war dreams alwaya lidat one.haiyo!hahaha.but at least i didnt dance in front of my enemy this time!!(:hahah.

i hoope this story puts a smile on ur face!(:

in the past,today was supposed to be a special day.but not now.HAHAHA.

cool cool,everything is ok now.ok ok.ok only.ups and downs.hmmm,what did i wanna blog?i forgot.ytd,met claire after school.and her friend.whats the name?cheryl or sth like that.thats how u pronounce la.ok,everywhere we walk,see their friends.chung cheng high(yishun) people.haiyo.long johns got,mrt got.i tot same people,but apparently not.the mrt friends ah,bully one cat high nerd.hahaha.damn funny.i laughed la,so thats why its funny.that guy blocked both their way.then they make alot of noise.when they come out of the train,one laugh so loud.basket.hahhaa.at long johns,i did an O level paper.eh,no la.hahaa.claire tested me on some rubbish.people just had chinese prelim,u come and test all these.hahaha.i added one bonus qn to the test thou.hahha.had instant inspiration.ok.lets move on.soon came dusk,which meant time for soccer.played,okok.quite shacked.my ankle ah,now i tink corroded alr.damn pain.after that,saw kris bro and des ex twin in law.hahah.passed bro a letter.ETIL and bro ah,they "waaaaa" together damn bloody funny.like some choir.hha i was shocked la.hahaha.i know la,last time bro from choir.kids one.hahaha.!hmm.then the lights went out.kris called,ask if i could see him/her waving.i could not la!so dark.then someone run towards me,tot it was her,i ask her over the phone"are u running here""no"hahahah.in the end was jos!SCARY U KNOW!bang me all.hahaha.i was sweaty!sorry KANG jos!(:ok,went and eat with bernard,eugene.shermann seemed to go blind awhile as he cycled to al ameen.he cycle,stop beside our table,look around.then i tot he saw us alr.so we talk.2 mins later he called,"hey where are you all?" then i was shocked la,i tot he alr saw us.hahah.he cycled back,i had to shout OY then he saw us,he was still looking around.ok,walked home with eugene,shermann,bernard.all the old birds ah!hahaha.i wanna step old! (: gonna study later!with samuel i guess.kris bro gonna come early to sleep.AHHAHAAH.she's/he's really funny man!

its raining now(: its your voice im hearing to now(: so bring on the rain!woo!when the sun shines we shine together!i'll let u stand under my umbrella now!(:

i think i just fell in love with her.(:

hello hello everyone!(: i wanted to change my song to -burn- by usher.but imeen dont have.when u're free,just go check out the lyrics,hopefully with the music.its wat i wanna say man.yeah.

ok tml got CL B paper,prelims.im stuck in reverse,and in a dilemma.i guess when u decide to make ur life a routine,it really will.every yr,without fail.yup.what song should i put here now?ok la,i'll put a fast cheerful song.by blink?haha.ok.

hmmm sth just cheered me up alot.the news someone told me.i cant wait!-our childhood will start soon-(:

<3 you.

i cant think of what to type,sorry.i dont wannaa say much la.sorry for this poor update.prelims are upon us.save me.YOU're my only remedy.(:


let our troubles burn yeah,people?at night i pray,that soon yur face will soon fade away.but everytime i try i fall without my wings.HAHA.those are britney's lyrics.everytime?yeah.

hello!(: studied alone.ALONE!but with companies of janner,desiree,kristel,and michelle.hahaha.supposed to be jeremy,larris,and des ng.changed to girls.all cuz they pang seh me.HAHAHA.janner walked me home.keep my mp3 with you!(: it is so hard to get used to this.as in,everything!everything is changing!its good and bad!(: of cuz we'll all look at the good side together yeah?!lets just chill,i know u,u know me.talk cock sing song play mahjong.i dunno how to play la,but can whack la.hahaha.today's company in the library was -,i dunno how to describe.everything was weird.i'll be strong.and so will she.(:im not saying everything.i'll keep it inside me.just as memories.(:

HELLO THERE,the angel from my night mare.(everybody!)the shadow int he background of the morgue!(: woo hoo my left foot will be placed in a morgue soon man.(a place for keeping dead bodies)its so gone.gonna bandage it to the core later if possible.HAHAHA.wa nowadays seem to listen to songs that reflects me and someone else.keep getting me deep in thoughts(: listening to lyrics and taking the meaning deeply these days.(: ok today is study plus fun.anyone know why?morning,plans spoilt,ytd couldve met her.but well,plan spoil too.all cuz of A maths!tsk!i promised her to blog once i come online(: ok i study in church after sch.samuel waited for des ng till he slept,girls peep at him also dunno.hahaha.ok,desiree,kristel bro,geneva,maria,michelle ah,royal rumble in st teresa just now.they tot that one wrestling ring.macham like lita,china,tori wilson all come wrestle.tsk tsk.i kena thrown pillows all.hello!i book room for studying,u all come wrestling inside.michelle and maria most well behaved la.mich reading book,POTTER!maria,eating and eating and wannna step study!AHHAHAH!jeremy bruce,samuel,daniel all inside.basket.pang seh me one by one.cake came in,or rather,onli her head popped in.AHHAH.father ram her ass.HAHHA.then i imitated what father say.lucky he never whallop me.ok after that,left des and kris.kris ah,the best ever man!never fail to make me smile or laugh.sing song,anyhow whack with me.sth start same words same time.cant tahan,then des will say we bo liao all.hahaha.we played drums with fingers against tables.des cant.locked them outside all,then kris fell inside.AHAHA.she ah,REALLy like one small boy.my younger bro.haiyo.hahaha.des sprayed my socks with perfume!):ok,the girls had war of words on the board.suddenly i got brought in.as usual.then pillows hit my specs and face all.ahahha.kris scared of dark too!HAHAHH!yay!im not alone.aiya alot happened la.cant say it all.blogger will crash.

i miss her alot.baby its you.leave out all the rest!(:I LOVE YOU!

hey can u guys onli hear the chorus?haha.thats weird,i can hear the whole song.anyway,ytd,study like shit.(negative way).so little!and my maths,all the easy questions,cant GET ANSWER!wa lao.im feeling shitty now.ok,ytd,ate lunch,in st peter,noone caught me,biswas ate in there,uncle anthony came in,scolded him.hahaha.sorry biswas.im the escaper.rmb?haha.found out this new talent in sec 3 right?haha.the pillow fight one.hahaha damn.wonderful memories man.ok,then meeting start late,meeting start,after a few mins.someone(: called.hahah so i did my usual,went out,chit chat shiok shiok.she was going for tuition.she was irritated,and her tuition ended late): sorry i cant help.haha its part and parcel of like.i tink i had a 8hr tuition b4.eh 5 or 6 la,not 8.if 8 ah,i wouldnt be here right now.i'll be a mathematician trying to come out with one more stupid damn long formulae.wooo.n C r + nCr+1.........dunno what shit la!!!woo hoo!ok,after meeting,cant get room.haiz.so gotta wait to study.desiree and my little bro accompanied me.till mass started.and i studied.ok,that desiree and kris bro ah,polluted the whole white board with writings abt me and someone.it was nice but,gotta erase la.someone almost came in,i panick sia.ok,des wrote me a STEP letter.hahaha,thanks.and my bro couldnt spell shiny.or shinny.aiay i also dunno.but she spelt it as shinney.even worse rite?ahahaha.ok,then,had dinner with bro,saw that tottenham was playing sunderland and we predicted the score.i said tot 4-0 sun.she say either two or four,but sure kena thrash.in the end,sunderland won 1 nil rite?ah dammit.tot berbatov or what might have netted a hat trick.ROY KEANE!shit you.haha.ok,the al ameen workers treated my bro and i like we were unseeable.then,i cocked up my order.haha.but nvm that.ok,then go back church,wait for servers.go play awhile.bro went home.i said,watch the ring k?she say ya.must go home eearly prepare.then i say prepare what?wear jacket,buy popcorn.relac.hhaa.she say ya.ok then i say,eh if i scared i call.u better pick up.she say scared la,the movie also phone ring one.then i say if u see -danny- appear on ur caller id,pick up!.then i reached home,bathe all,missed forty mins of the show.and guess what,i called kris using my home phone,twice,she didnt pick.i just wantd to ask what happen in the beginning.after awhile i got msg.-bro!was it you that called just now? scary la-HAHAH!i forgot she dont have my hs number.sorry la bro.ok,then she filled me in abt the beginning.the movie NOT SCARY AT ALL>the ending like shit.hahaha.ok doing maths now. ):


love you baby,-baby come on-.hahaha.

MANN!my cough is killing me!i'd rather die in a better way than coughing till die!help!and i think i had a mini diarrhoea just now.so bloody early in the morning(still dawn).sun not up yet.6 or 7 sth.woo.dreamt in my dream that in two situations i got serious tummy ache.then i woke,really got!then shit two times.so,half my dream came true.hahahahahahhahahahahahhah!the situation wasnt there,it was just at home.but the other half correct,twice get MAJOR tummy ache ): today is saturday,used to be cat class day.but so sad,now its just meetings,sometimes trainings,half hearted soccer at night sometimes,and study in the afternoon.):oh,and sometimes,temper-losing moments while studying.see?its alwasy a saturday-gone-wrong.or a wasted one. must practice temperance.OH i tink im having a new friday and saturday late nigth routine if im alone.after soccer.(: secret!only God and I knows. (: its te only way i can accomplish my drems and wishes and GOALS! (: i wanna turn over a newer leaf ppl!HAHAHA.too many times have i turned ver a leaf but turned it back.its so sad.so now,am gonna turn again.dont turn me back ah!i wanna be serious now.

ytd,study with desiree awhile.switch deses ah.haha.suppose to be DESMOND NG!but what happened?9plus while i playig soccer,he msg me and jeremy saying he just woke up.WOO HOO HOO!!!nine plus pm!might as well DONT WAKE.haha.ah pa bought some sleep.HAHAH.deiree was confident she could do the simultaneous by herself!AHAHHAHAH!she took like 12hours doing and got it wrong.i did it in less than half a minute!WOO!hahaa and got it right!yes!hhaha.gave her some tips on maths too.and i heard kritel bro does well in maths?haha.runs in the family i guess. :D BUT MY A MATHS SUCKS!i took the whole time trying to figure out just ONE PART of the question,from tuition till now.NOW also haven.its like 830am,i haven found the answer!!i will get it right,i dont care. BOYS LIKE GIRLS!

to bloodred dear:
today is a winding road,that's taken me to places i didnt want to go. (: YOUR VOICE WAS AND IS AND WILL BE THE SOUNDTRACK! YOU'KLL ALWAYS BE MY THUNDER. I WONT LOVE ANOTHER.! BRING ON THE RAIN! I LOVE YOU!

hello , had tuition just now.now gonna cycle to chruch den study with desiree i think.hahaa.shall be a nerd once again.or maybe i alreadi am,just a playful one.haha step study one.HAHA.den soccer later i hope!(; ACUNA! my idol now.haha.

woo,sometimes you hear songs from 50cent ah,quite "song".song song ah!he and eminem and justin timberlake my favourite r&b or rap.justin cant rap thou.hahah.
see ya people!

actually,someone owe me sth.but shall forget it.hahhaa.


love you darling!hope u're having a good day!get well soon!(:

he was a boy she was a girl
can i make it anymore obvious!

He was a punk, she did ballet
What more can I say?

He wanted her, she'd never tell
secretly she wanted him as well

But all of her friends, stuck up their nose
They had a problem with his baggy clothes...

He was a skater boy
She said "see ya later boy"
He wasn't good enough for her
She had a pretty face
But her head was up in space
She needed to come back down to earth

Five years from now, she sits at home
Feeding the baby, she's all alone

She turns on T.V., guess who she sees
DANNY boy rocking in ST ANTHONY'S
She calls up her friends, they already know
And they've got tickets to see his show

she tags along, stands in the crowd
Looks up at the man that she turned down

I was a skater boy
I said "see ya later GIRL"
He wasn't good enough for her
Now I'M a superstar
Slammin on his guitar
Does your pretty face see what he's worth?
He was a skater boy
She said "see ya later boy"
He wasn't good enough for her
Now he's a superstar
Slammin on his guitar
Did your pretty face see what he's worth?(hold out)

Sorry girl, but you missed out
Well tough luck that boy's mine now

We are more than just good friends
This is how the story ends

Too bad that you couldn't see
See the man that boy could be

There is more than meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside

He's just a boy and I'm just a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?

We are in love, haven`t you heard
How we rock each others world!

I'm with the skater boy
I said "see ya later boy"
I'll be backstage after the show
I'll be at the studio
Singing the song we wrote
About a girl you used to know.

I'm with the skater boy
I said "see ya later boy"
I'll be backstage after the show
I'll be at the studio
Singing the song we wrote
About the girl you used to know.


HELLO HELLO!(: i have 5goals in life now(: i will keep them in my heart till i breathe my last(:

HELLO HELLO!(: thursday,9august rocks!thanks to yoU!!(:


try to smile for the morning light,its like the best dream to have,where everything is not so bad.every tear is so alone.(:

our dream was almost fulfilled ytd.one of our dreams.(:it will come true one day,that wish(:

ok,ate some very special donuts.haha!it was fantastic.mann,i shall not describe or say anything else yeah?today was just fantastic.i can find no more worries in me.she took it all away.all.thanks!i love you.

ok,ended up in cck somehow(: walked the wrong way,walk towards LRT instead of MRT.i looked like i was stalking this man.cuz he walk in front of me,go wrong way too,so he turn,i also turn.follow him all.hahahaha.ok then had this mad indian man in the train.must be drunk.kept spitting la.oh my gosh,not one percent of moral values.think this one what?india ah?spit here spit there.in the train itself some more.sick.ok just watched troy on channel 5.it was great!(:ytd and today combined is the best ever i think.things just keep getting better!!aAHHHHH!!!thank you bloodred dear!!!

sorry.my throat was and is super duper pain.its hard to swallow anything!more DONUTS and CANDY FLOSS when both of us are well k?!

-star gazing on top of the world- (:

alright.i was supposed to dedicate -all my life- by kci and jojo to HER but dont have!!AH!): anyway,got 155.haha.ok.

ytd,during tuition.slept,then i jumped so high up.HHAHAH!den i pretend use phone.i dunno why i really got a damn bloody shock while sleeping.hahaha.afternoon-mare i guess.ahah so funny la.that day soccer,fell down cuz anthony step on my semi injured foot,then i fell in slow motion,haha then gto -ahhh- soft one.haha.den i fell like one upturned tortoise la.i felt weird.hahaha.

(when i look at my heart,i see a silhouette of her swaying and dancing to the melody playing in my mind.)

i love you so much baby.


today,national day celebration the best.school so quiet,had fire drill.had to clean up class.had A maths remedial.then A maths tuition.just came home.WA!!!!!hahaha.almost died.feeling sick now.):


love my baby to bits!

hello there,the cupcake from my oven.

oh ok FATHER's homilies always rock.hahaha.darling,sweetie,cupcake.hahahaa.his favourite words.ok he made me make ALL the announcements ytd): and sheila said she'll discuss with father so that i'll do it every week): i havent gone for the training!HOW?!haha sheila thanks la.hahaha.u're the one that gets the crowd going,so u should remain!

im just some young kid rading off from the slip of paper!

ok.today's like the first time in dunno how long,gel my hair.hahah!tsk tsk tsk.vanity of vanities is still vanity.dont ask me what it means.it wasnt me that said it! (: ok see ya people!school seemed like a long day today!partner didnt come,and the guy on the other side of my partner say,why today so queit.DUh.we two are the noise polluters and jokers,so,couldnt do without him.eh damina,relac a bit la.haha.hope the doctor was just buayyying mann..how can u get dengue.?i'd rather hear the doctor say u're suffering from some love sick,or long time never see shiling wear - - la.alamak.get well soon!russell almost killed me!hAHAHAH serial KILLER ON THE LOOSE.hope he doesnt see this.hhahahah!


darling,hope u had a good time as training today.and hope ur back is getting better too!(:i love you!

dng tak dng dng tak dng tak tak dng qi!

ok thats bullshit,suppose to be i miss you's beat.but how to describe?hahaha.whack only.

ok la,I SHALL NOT,WILL NOT,be compared to another person!compare yourself first,anyway,even if u do that,nth,NOTHING gives you the right to compare others.it is passing judgement.go to hell shit.

ok..haha amrish came over just now.mann,sorry armpit,not much food.and u destroyed my only food,go add the chicken rice chilli and light sauce some more la.hahahah.basket.my sore throat got worse.must be lunch.u should've seen my plate.haha i took the longest to finish my food.

sad life(:many many people can make as low,as sad as anyone has ever been.but it just takes yuor true love to say or do sth nice and all sad memories are erased.


ok ok,thats the quote of the day.i mean it.isnt it true?who cares if everyone plus one frustrates you.and your day wasnt generally good,but still good.know why its that way?cuz of your true love!go thank him or her now!now!must appreciate those who stood by you.and of cuz,the miracle of ur loved one.or ones la.


love you baby!

you are my sunshine,my only sunshine.at dawn,only one sun comes up,and its you.

ok my right leg,near the ankle,got cut.i think by a soccer ball la.i dont remember anyone tackling me that area.hahaah.

OK THINGS ARE SO SO COOL NOW!THE POWER OF - LOVE IS BACK!
-HOLD ME CLOSE,LET UR LOVE SURROUND ME.BRING ME NEAR,DRAW ME TO YOUR SIDE!- (:


hey thanks so much!my day was made in the morning,before lunch.thats why i was late to meet anthony!hahah sorry bro.but anyway,yeah,even the saddest thing that happened to me today could not take a single JOY away from me.the JOY of me and bloodred.it was too powerful.definitely.

thank u to those who helped.(: today study a bit onli!!ahhh!!hahah meeting ah,i(is it secretary or treasurer),i think secretary.minutes taker la.i keep going out of meeting,cuz raed bloodred and i kept chatting on the phone!hahaha.but she really motivated me alot.i think not only my day was made,my week was made ah!THANK YOU!

k kris ah,(biswas junior),really really like biswas.she said sth or did sth like what the real biswas always do.haha.but today,with hair clip,she looked like a small boy!AHHHA!xiao di!haha.small bro.

ok sleep's gonna be good.this is like the best day ever in months!!!!or month.hahaha.but i really liked today.meeting part especially.was with all my bros,and chatting with her!janner!(:
she took me out,on a sunday dawn.she made me jog,with her beside me.we started joggin straight,and (to the left to the left).a drizzle soon occured,and she had an umbrella ella ella eh eh eh. (: combo of remix -whats my age again-,-irreplaceable-,and umbrella-.hahah cool huh.


oh its all the small things playing on my com now!(: ur ride,best trip!always i know,u;'d be at my show(: ok goodnight bros,and baby.slp tight,and sweet dreams.!sweet dreams is all it takes!(:

ah,my nose,bled in church toilet.so so much.then manage to remove the burst blood vessell too.hahaha.shiok sial.the blood stopped on the spot after it came out.MY BLOOD'S O+!!! (: love you!

yo!wont you do it for me now now now now,now now now now........?HHAHA.song rocks.

anyway just got back from soccer.haven bathe whole day.hahaha.ok two days since i last logged in.and today,i haven eat lunch and dinner.might just eat cup noodles later.im kinda ill.): its a weird sickness.well,i guess some people might be sick due to stress,or maybe love sick.or maybe its the weather.oh its the usual come and go sickness.i hope all those who are sick,along with me,get well really soon.yeah.(:

ok.am gonna play my soccer game as usual.i dunno where my raed bloodred rennaj went to,hahah why are u not online YBAB!???sorry,i did rushed back,cycled and all.ahha tot u might still be online. get well soon! (: ur back too.okok?my backs healing fast.haha

ok,soccer,my two bros,thanks for kar jiao-ing me ah.i played well partially of both ur thinkings,but also it was our first game of the night agaisnt the malays there.wanted to play well.hahah.and ya la,u two were right la.cuz AHEM ahem ahem.....to be continued.hahahahah.tomorrow round two.should i go for training?hahah.i wanna go!but i scared very little ppl go la.acuna will be lonely.haha.just now soccer,when i hit the chair,the goal,i said acuna.then like noone know what i saying.then i said acuna matata.HAHAHAH cover uppppp onlyyyy...haha i hope noone heard.ahhahaah.acuna is a striker la,for ur info.fast and accurate.my new idol.i mean,my new,erm,i look up to him la.thou shall not idolise.(:


ok,good night everyone.good night rennaj.(: !eroc eht ot uoy evol i!star gazing is what we'll do everynight under the oak tree.i mean before going under the oak tree.or else the tree will block the stars from our view la.yeah..aahah.simple physics.ok.nights!LOVES!17yr old bros the best! (:

hello hello!reached home later than i could've today.hahah.could've met someone but welllllllllllll.....HHAHAH.ok listening to smack that now.i know this morning i scolded a lower sec for parading around the upper sec area blasting this song on his hp.hahah.i didnt really scold la.not that bad.but he think he damn big la..ok i smashed a baminton racket partly due to frustration,the other reason is,erm my class should know.HAHAHAHAH effing funny.i laugh till couldnt stand up.had to lean on the wall.hahaha.i took pics of it.wait ah,see can post or not.

hahah im not sure it'll work.ok the cartoon represents HER and ME!haha and there she is pouting,can u see?aw she's sad.haha.and.can u see the racket?gosh.cant tahan.must laugh.teacehr come i quickly run into class hide it in the cupboard.that time still in one piece! (:



i love you baby!lets make this last forever,for ever and ever,lets make this last FOREVER!(: