hahah people!see that candy floss dawn baby is kissing!proof that i gave her at last ah!AHAHAHHA!she say i owe her 7 more.one for each month she waited.AHAHHA.later candy floss out of stock ah.hahah.i just love her so much.

Maybe I didnt know
How to show it
And maybe I didnt know
What to say
But this time I wont disguise
Then we can build our lives
And we can be as one



there are many many nice lines in this song(:

dawn janner ng li jun is the best ever!:D I see God in her.


these cuts we have,they need love to help them heal!(:


forgiving,thoughtful,concerned,loving,honest...

Love is just like a game,it could be a game of chess,a game of soccer,basketball,CS.one wrong move,thats it.its over.but we should never look on the similarities between a game,and love.we MUST look at how they differ.in games,u lose because of that wrong move,you might curse and swear,you lose that goal,you can lose the World Cup.you regret it.and its up to you if you wanna dwell on that,or continue working,and improve further.for Love,human to human love,we can forgive.we are given that gift,gift of forgiveness,of understanding.and it is different to watch love movies and feeling so loved up,so heavenly when compared to Love out there.it is different when you are with the one you love,and in movies.because,now YOU are the one making the choices and decisions,not brat pit,not anyone else.its YOU.and we do make mistakes.don't you agree?you should never live with regrets,what are regrets?regrets are history.things that ALREADY happened.the only thing we should carry with us from the past is lessons learnt from mistakes.nth else.trust,maturity.and every small thing counts.I'm sorry i sometimes make wrong decisions,please forgive me,everyone.I am self centred.i cant hide that fact.lets pity those who doesnt know to love at all,i myself dunno love that well.yes it is something complicated.but so what?are we just gonna to continue saying to ourselves forever that oh love is compicated,love is compicated,love is hard,love hurts.RUBBISH!no we're not gonna do that.learn to love.reject satan and his emtpy promises.we make commitments,not promises.and one more thing,do NOT be swept away by the words people say abt you and what you SHOULD do.its your life,not theirs.u make the last decision.and by the way,time is bullshit.dont bother arguing about time (: its pure bullshit.trust me.


ok lets carry on,HAPPY BIRTHDAY darling dawn.haha.(: im glad u spent ur special day with me.overjoyed,i should say.hahah.went pak tor-ing with her.haha.town,then my house.then soccer training.she's a good girl.she is.i shall not say why. :D confidential.hahah.i hope the feeling you feel at 11.59 and 59 seconds is of happiness and gratefulness.but once again,time is bullshit,so,just stay happy!hahaah!I LOVE YOU!kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss plus bonus,muack,phoo!hhaha.phoo means blow.flying kiss,yeah.haha.do take care.enjoy!<3 when i see your smile,tears roll down my heart. :D

HAHAHA OMG!i just realise now that stc produce some funny,some sweet,some blurr people!some only!hahha.

first was evonne!!!!hahah tell me a damn sweet story abt her bf.ok,then i must be stoned by the sweetness.she talk talk,suddenly say.OH WAIT WAIT!!i was saying about soccer.no soccer,no pe.she asked,that serious ah?i said,yeah die die must have ball to kick.that time raining,teacher bring small ball to hall.small ball lost,we use floorball.no floor ball,we kick each other balls.HAHHA.then she eeeww..then say fish tank polluted,den she drowning.cuz we named each other goldfish.both short term memory ma.then i was like i'll save u.then she said,hey fish cant drown.HAHAHAHAHHA!!!gosh i was damn blurr too!!how could i not think of that.haha.MEIMEI!trick me ah!

nah ma,the blog scare me,i clicked sth and it navigated away.lucky got save.


ok,then kristel,folowed her to cwp,buy slipper.she was sweet too la,helped me with sth at home.erm.top secret.after tml den can say.hahah.

ok,then that isabelle!and valerie!ok isabelle,let out the surprise all.lucky plan failed ah.or else no more surprise.AHHAHA.damn funny ok.hhaha first darling dawn was complaining cuz she suspects val and isa are going over to her place.den i told isa and val she liked sponge bob i tink.ahahha.they got her chicken run things.one male one female.that daughter of mine ah,say the male is me.and mocha,still can ask her.so tml u still going zoo ah?hahhaha.and i heard daughter nudged mocha,then say last yr they thought of going what.den dawn said she forgot.heng ah.haha.also said,daughter got giraffe tattoo.HAHAH
!!the cover up damn damn pro!!!tsk.den i laugh until anyhow click,click the master card thing.that was how my blog got navigated away la.hahah.


mocha-TOMH!hahahah!!ua ll can ask me on msn wat does that stand for.

i gotta get webcam soon man.

anyway.baby i love you!big day tml!:D


people!its dawn's birthday tml!

servers!soccer training tml at four pm.dont ask me why four.dont ask me where too.i dunno where.

back from soccer.another saturday gone by.me favourite day of the week.kristel was doing well till the ending of the day.she PS me for desiree.hahah.fine.at least helped us get drinks.ok.went cwp got some stuff(:

wa jeremy,thanks ah,ur elbow like made of some alloy sial.my hip like kena mamat tk betol one nice one.hahah.got one red dot there,u press ah,damn pain.ahha.hips dont lie alreadi man.

cat like thief,she stole air from my lungs(:

that was random,anyhow la,my song playing.ok,hmm,today wasnt a bad day,just damn tiring.early in the morning,nah ma,downstairs dunno what event,play THIS IS HOME TRULY,WHERE I KNOW I MUST BE,CUZ THIS IS WHERE,I KNOW I BELONG.got other national day song.then got quiz for the kids.if yellow house is on the left,red house on my right,where is the white house?isn't it suppose to be centre??hahah.the kid answered "washington DC.".correct sial.america,washington dc.smart sehh.hahaha.i thought the answer is centre.

and i,i wont lie, i wont sin,maybe/baby i dont wanna go.sorry ah,u know tom delonge's pronunciation kinda hard to hear wat he saying.baby or maybe,it sounds the same.ahhaha.

yay got new tv,flat screen.haaha.can watch movie at last.

anyway people,go crunchyroll watch -angel i love you-.its a sgp show.damn nice.i almost cried.hahah.all can watch except dawn!!hahah baby!dont let u watch.

alright,nighty night everyone!

the sunset stretched across this night time scene.i counted people as i neared the street below. (:

im lost for words.

hey new friends test up here in this blog.yup!(:easier one la.previous one was rubbish.AHHAHA.<3

HELLO!:D

good morning!i'll miss baby dawn even more now.haven't met her for quite long.second day now.the six days was a torture.real torture.

ok lets talk abt ytd.after leaving rose wood,(it was raining heavily at first)the rain kinda stopped la,but i alreadi called desiree to bring umbrella.desmond,anthony and i were there.so,desmond and anthony were thinking whetehr they should take the bus from across,or just outside rose wood,so nvm,we wait for desiree first.she came,beofer that many 912s alreadi go past the opposite side.the side that desmond and anthony always takes.so,desiree came,desmond saw the bus,he shouted for anthony to run with him,so desmond ran first.anthony had toe cramp earlier on,so he msut think twice first i tink.hahaha.so he ran.took a few steps,slipped and fall.GOD DAMN FUNNY!sorry bro!!hahah cant stop laughing!!wa lao,i go to the spot where u fell,totally dry sial!!that shorts u wearing not water proof right,like ur swimming ones.HAHAH!sia la.damn funny.reminded me of desmond,he fell down that day.only one part of his white pants turned black,then he threw it away.HAHA.that time was biswas.tsk tsk!"KEITH where are WOOOOO"boom!that one also damn funny!


alright alright,i havent fell infront of them.oh got!soccer la,they always laugh at me falling down.hahaha.like a overturned turtle all.hahah!

ok,after anthony falling down,i walked home alone,halfway thru,mp4 went flat.this malay girl walking towards me,she using phone,she look up,then bigit,she got a shock.dunno why.do i look ghostly?haha she pause,then touch her heart all.drama mama.

ok,then i walking at the road side,this bloody truck horn,bigit me.AHHAHA.smile to myself all.


If youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side


i wanna sing this to you.it really suits us honey.rmb this was the first blog song i have when we first met?(:

baby I LOVE YOU!I turst you too yeah.no worries.(:

BABY!i feet hurts!left foot is my big toe very pain,cuz my shoe there going to have hole at the big toe part.haha.then right side is cuz i volleyed the ball wrongly.songg songggg!i thought my foot broke at first.it was DAMN pain.BUT!no worries,im fine.im home.soccer was great.i hope u're feeling alright there!

love you baby Dawn Janner Ng Li Jun.

HELLO!im back from sentosa!hiong right?after chalet.go sentosa.woo.shiok.never had this much freedom in such a long time!!im in heaven man.ok maybe not.do you all wanna guess what happened at sentosa?HAHAHA.can i say it?damn,everytime they go without me and do sth stupid,nothing happens.but when i go,kena caught!!oh baby.haha.KNN!ice cream no ice,cheese fries no cheese.eh i forgot one more.shit.


damn why i cant rmb stuff ah?the whole of this yr i really got short term memory.serious balls.

hahah!towels.BECAUSE OF TOWELS!baby how if u came back,called me,and a policeman picked up and said im in jail?you'll chop some part of me when i come back right?hahahah!kk nvm im at home,im safe honey.baby -letters!- words and images.

ok slp was good towards the end.knocked out.before that,cant slp sial.den play lgihtstick-fight.hahah step fight. never even sun tan.moon tan.moon tan no moon.ahhhh..yeah.moon tan no moon.only stars.BABY!so many stars ytd. ): u werent there.i thought of you though.baobao!hahah!wherever i go also got one star.gold one some more.like those on christmas trees.its on my head i think.

desiree i hope u let dawn see my msg!

ok,hopefully can go learn drums from mr.drummer later.lunch.lunch?lunch!hungry!

OHHHH amrishhhhhhhhh landed our one and only soccer ball(sean's) in the sea!roll over the ocean,roll over the sea.i'll rolling thunder you,amrish!haah!first time was dunno who kick,i scared to run fast and slide,later i go into the sea.so i brake.lucky the ball also brake.got hole in the rocks.but amrish ah.si bei suay.hahah!

you shut up and listen to me!i want a replacement of the zinger meal,the cheese fries no cheese,and your............!

you shut up and listen to me.i want a replacement of a ice cream no ice!(ben and jerry's version).



alright baby,i know you duno what im talking about above.nd it sounds lame i know.but who cares?i love you.

!evol eurt eno ym si nwad
i wont throw that away.cause she's here for me,and i'll tell her i'll stay. :D oohh baby hurry hurry come back!gosh u know im damn tempted to help u wash ur pe attire and socks!i scared later we open then got some maggots or what inside.never wash for so many days,never take out.woo!at the corner of my room,near the clothes some more.later my shirt smelly smelly i know why.hahahahahhahah!!!!!BABY!xoxo!ok forget that.HUGS AND KISSES!muaaccckkkk!!!phooooo!!!catch it!oh tell ur heart to press the accept button.ur heart how much space ah?1gig?512mb?128mb?hugs and kisses from me is about 6gig.send through blue tooth.-sending- -hugs and kisses received-
but love is unsendable through waves means.come back here baby,i miss you alot.

all you ever wanted was someone to truly look up to you,and six feet under water,i do.

HELLO everyone1back from a chalet.the God of tiredness is talking to me.yeah.dyed my hair there,thanks allen/alan.thanks bernard and eugene for the first day as well.which was ytd.was so glad they came.haha.tonight sentosa!!oh my i really miss her soo so so much.


-letters and pcitures- is my picture still hanging in ur locker??hahah!

ok,ant wait for sentosa tonight.SERVERS at last!!woo!miss their company.hanging out with a different group is really really hard.even for just a day.all sec3s,i sec5,cant clique.hahah.can la,but not as good.thanks cheryl crab and kenneth (: hahah.for the bbq,i'd give a high rating.very impressed with the food.ahha.maybe i dont bbq then better.hahah.ok,i shall not elaborate further on this!i shall leave it to crab to elaborate.haha."someone emo at chalet all,step tired.and missing two people alot" haiz.what really erased my joy that night was my smses with someone.i feel so sorry and sad for her la.hahah!but crab kinda funny!say dawn cant come back from philippines,cuz no air ticket back.first time she said that,i said NO dont say that.hahah then after that,i say i'll fly there to fetch her.HAHAH

"falling asleep with your words and images in my hand sends me to heaven."even made me drool abit on the chalet bed sheet!HAHAHA shh!this is top secret!!

some people really gotta humble themselves.

ANYWAY!OMG!eugene and bernard damn good to me ytd. ): i really owe them alot,i feel ..hmm.what word to use?i dunno.like people too good to u then u never return anything,yeah,that feeling.

anyway.!!!!!ok ok this will be the last anyway.k I REALLY MISS DAWNJANNERNGLIJUN to the core,the max,the ultimate,the the the.."the children here are so cute" :D baby u made me smile and happy.i love you.do you know i regret not doing sth before you left?shall tell u what when you get back(:baobao!

she is ever so sweet.come to think of it,the gifts she gave were of every aspect.mostly self-made though(: THANK YOU!!cake(consumable and consumed.),straw hearts,letters,tiles with words on it!:D ): so mannnnyyyy...baby i havent gotten you anything.oh ya still got donuts and all!!ahaahh!now i know why i getting fatter!!jk jk!!AHAHAHAH!baby i love you.TAKE CARE WHILE YOU"RE IN PHILLIPINES!!dont get diarrhoea like kristel k?hahah.she passed it to me i tink,these few days i having diarrhoea.hahah!hope u enjoy more than suffer while u're away!no worries,my heart will send infra red waves,radio waves,and blue tooth signals over to your's!!can still chat!hahaah!

<3 i'll miss you!but a bit only.cuz ah,the amount of things u gave me,can use them to make one dawn alreadi.:D

we shared moments that lasts till the end,but the problem is,there is no end.

hello!:D see that smile.thats my mood now :D i love you people!k many more wished me.some people msg at 12am.hahha around there.but thanks to all!thanks to those at rosewood,the court. dawn.thank you for the whole-day-company!!!:D but we didnt off the internet before leaving house!hahaha.eh i forgot what to blog!ok birthday's over.i've got a neopets account.thanks to hon.hahah.she create for me.janneraphael.cool name.:D k la,cant think,brain dead.thanks cake for wishing me(:thanks shanna too!

:D audrey choo,isabelle chua,and emmanuel bastian(after i told him) wished me this morning!:D thank you!

isa's struck my eyes.drew it in msn/hahah.so big.

haha baby why is the post unposted?u told me to view our blog,but,its only in the drafts,and besides,its half written!and,u said u'd post it at 12!hahah did mum chase u to slp again!hahah!

anyway,aww!thanks so much to those in Rose Wood!i was taken aback!supposed to soccer,but they went rose wood,after had cake and all!:D haha sweet!thank you!it was,desmond ng,anthony,joscelyn,bernard,marcus,jeremy,larris,keith,jos and marcus mum(same mum),did i miss anyone out?no la.couldnt have.OH OH!i did,raymond!hahahah!bloody hell,the video of you!!hahaha!!you all made my day man,and of cuz,thank u parents!for the treat at botak jones.hahah.it was still dad's birthday when we had dinner.he is on the 8th,mine 9th!hhaha.then there was flat screen there,and they played half of the soulja boy video!hahah!

thank you to those who wished me too!to me,small tiny minute(my-nute) effort counts!so yeah,thsoe who called and msg,thank u.here are the names. -amelia(called),cheryl(msg) and evonne(called),enid(msg),kimberley(msg),kenneth(msg),DAWN!(msg)(so late!)haha!,anthony,moses.hahaha.dawn called again after that.evonne's voice was sexy.hahahha!ate too much algae in the fish tank.OH!joel wished me too!through evonne.yeah.thank you!

company with servers and joscelyn rocks.present from hon was sweet!havent figure out how to open my letter yet.haiyo!): so hard!aahaha!OH!kristel wished me after her diarrhoea too.hahah.

ok,generalled today,with cs,den,yeah,so on.later,part two.ahhaha.

i love you!serves,joscelyn,everybody else,and.............DAWN!haha chill la,thought i forgot to mention you right.honey,meet you later!(:sweetness on the soul(:

morale-superb.

hello hello!(: things seem to be good all of a sudden,but yet.in good times,there will be something bad that will happen too!so,ok,lets not go into details.
alright,lets see.one,two,wait wait,sec one,hmmm i didnt know her yet.sec 2?na..sec3.hmm.yeah,sec3.so,sec5 minus sec3 equals two.hmm.

i'll like to dedicate this song to some one.k which song?there are so many in my mind now.

-please please don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with me
Can't you see how much I need you

Now she hasn't slept in weeks
She don't want to close her eyes cause she's scared that he'll leave
They tried just about everything
It's getting harder now
For him to breathe
And she says


Please don't let her go
I'm begging you so
There open her eyes
There ain't no more time
To tell her that I love her more
Than anything in the world-

ok thats kinda edited abit.

the next song,its for dawn.(:

-When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven-



:D i love you baby!thanks for the present once again!very soon i'll find a way to open the letter!see la so smart,seal it with double sided tape some more.hahha!super strong la,the thing.

ok,soccer was ok,didnt go town.i met (: in the morning,we did some ATM thing,(: and (: went off.(: then took lunch with me,oh before that we met dawn!hahah yeah then dawn walked with me from woodlands to my house.dad saw us!hhaha!:D goodnight ppl!iloveyou!

HELLO HELLO!who is the one that can change my sadness into joy?its DAWNJANNERNGLIJUN! :D thank you for today baby!(: ur present is soooooooo sweet!hmm,i can taste it man!sweeter than sugar,yeah!hahaha.hey hon,see the tag in shared personal blog k? (: haha share,and personal.shhhh!ok,i thought the servers would make my day.well.instead,it was DAWN that made it!and the servers,they were a real bonus!(:generals and cs,woo,shiok shiok!songsong!!hahaha pengsan balls! (:

her smell was sooo nice.she sang songs,she sang the deep deep song plus actions!in the night when she's on the phone,she sang a song of hope.we discussed about things :D where will she be seated,or standing,at the wedding ceremony? :D we sang -i wont be home for christmas- together,and i explained the lyrics.she told me to open the preent,oh my gosh.you won the bet actually,baby.the inside of me was crying.my heart wanted to tap your's and say,"thanks baby heart."

(:

just remember,what you think of as insult,might be a compliment,or a help for you.there are always more than one way to look at things,at words,at expressions.-sorry like an angel- (:

u make me smile. <3 < dawn 3

(: my hearing is so powerful!can sense people from afar!

sometimes,crying makes you feel stronger. (:

EMMANUEL SOH ASKED ME TO BLOG(:

hahah! HELLO emmanuel raphael soh QING QING's friend!
omg i'm like damn high now(: hahahaha!
3 packets of florida's natural sweets(:
stupid tution have to spoil my mood only ):
anyway emmanuel soh is sick ):
and he is on his way church now with his.
*giggle* HOOD-Y!
3 more papers to go(:
1 science and 2 CLB paper.(:
okayy don't mind i'm damn HIGH now(:
hahahaha. orh-hor emmanuel wants to be principle.
and ask only the ugly female teachers to teach HAHHAA!

- dawnjanner(: -
where is my candy floss?
you owe me for seven months aready!

Labels: Bed Of Nails - Bon Jovi.

will someone screw me real hard for screwing the paper real bad!damn my nose,damn the qns.but i gotta blame myself!nothing i studied came out,flu made it worse,couldnt think.slept awhile during paper.wake up,end up looking at the hot teacher.she looks like see-glass.hahha.spent 80% of my time doing sth to my nose,tissue i left in my bag.EFF!10percent whacking answers as much as possible.5% day dreaming and sleeping.5% looking at the teacher and looking around.my friend used two booklets!why never ask me!can give u mine.GOD DAMN IT!

somebody saaaavveeee me..keeeeepp hoooollddding onnn..hhhahaa.who is my hero!come!im holding on,u gotta come fast yeah!i'll let go by tml morning.

why must the teacher look like someone i know!some more just recently had cold war with her.was a great distraction.if i ever become a principal of st gabriel's,first law will be -NO HOT TEACHERS ARE ALLOWED TO ENTER THE SCHOOL-


k la byebye people.are we DXBs,or are we people with strong faith,let us reflect.