hello!
nnni ni ni ni hao.

:D
im so so damn tired now.slept without blanket till 630am.couldnt take it,ask mum if can take blanket.ahhah cuz its still hung to dry.then beh tahan,go take.ahaha.felt so so empty without a blanket. ):
woke up,serve 11am mass.lunch.soccer match,kept going around woodlands.kept changing field locations.in the end its near my house.hahaha.den rush home bathe,come out of shower,straight away perspire again.hahah.soccer match ah,i play one half,enough alreadi.almost died.then went serve mass again.6pm.so late.hahaha.

this morning i served ah,was main right,then i taking out the sacrementary,then it hit the deco.the whole thing shook.(the back of biswas and the big Jesus).i scared sia,thought the whole thing gonna drop.hahaha.it kept shaking.woo.if drop ah,drop on father terence.hahaha.thats it for me,balls.


serving mass at 6pm,desiree all laughing at me do the survey thing.i didnt know it was onli for parents la.tsk.i wanted to give maria.hahaha.the big one.small one didnt come.

hahaha..hehehe..hohoho..

DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME ON ME,YOU'RE ALREADY A VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD.MISS YOU,MISS YOU. :D

I love little flowers!hhaha.!!!awww.

i bet some of you all heard it from somewhere before!hahaha.

OK ho sei.father terence found out my weakness.he kept poking me everytime he walk pass.tsk!hahaha.this one cant retaliate la.or else get worse.hahaha.wa,fun ah father.hahaha.shiok shiok,free pokes.

wonder what he;ll do if i poke him back.
misai drop right.buayyy.

k go slp!late alreadi!and later gonna serve 11am,go match.go home bathe again.go church.serve 6pm./woo.shiok right.hahaha.

Thank You Lord for everything.for my life,for your guidance.
tahnks desmond biswas for just now too.its 2322am now ,.hahah. sorry to keep u under my block so long.i kinda like these kinda chill out chats.abt our lives.wish they could have our brains yeah?hahah dont think u'll read this.thanks so much anyway.bros forever man.

part of life,whatever happens. :D

you all are slping soundly now,thats good.dont be like me.havent bathe after soccer all.230am all.still here.ahhaha.

really stresses out!!!woo! :D

and i miss you more whenever i think abt you.

ayo!ytd afternoon,went to de la salle to teach the guys stuff.cute fellas.hahah.but i skipped lunch and dinner!suppose to have dinner in de la salle,but went only just on time,so no time to eat.thanks annabel for helping to discipline them and debriefing.ahah.met jeremy after that,in his house.first thing he do,as usual,bigit me.hahaha.then we,(jeremy,me,bernard and desmond biswas),were supposed to watch a 520pm movie.well,late as usual.so go eat first.watch 725pm one.KNN.dont watch two shutters in two days.hahaha.just two days ago i watched the thai one.ytd we watch english one.almost the same.but bloody hell,even though i know whats coming.still shout like what.everytime we shout,whole theatre will look at us.some laugh,some talk among themselves,i bet they're cursing us.hahah we were louder than the sound effect there.hahah.bloody shit.oh YA!!hahah one time i shout damn loud.AHHHHH.then i shouted BLOODY SHIT.hahha.hot ah.wa lao,shock sia the thing.ahhaha.go watch la you all.hahah. :D

): i regretted nt learning properly on how to make sth outta two straws from someone.had two straws ytd.kept twisting them,but unsuccessful.haha.but i amused myself by only making half a heart.hahah the other half cant la.ya la.how can someone out of love make a full heart.must be half!!

awww.so emo ah emmanuel.relac la.straw only.hahahaa.

alright!changing blog song!!if i can.haha.sorry enid and bel.haha.aiya,OVER YOU can hear anywhere one right.for me,that song is in everything i have that can produce sound.HP,MP4,COMPUTER...hahaha.

Its not where you come from,its where you're at.



When I'm with you,I'll make every second count 'cause I miss you whenever you're not around.When I kiss you,I still get butterflies years from now.I'll make every second count when I'm with you.

oh,hello! :D

just came back not that long ago.was in church morning,till noon.library stuff.
then went seans house.rented a few VCDs la.eugene they all.haha shutter and Click.
damn.shutter was shocking.ahha and scary.i was so scared one part,i shouted and farted at the same time.basket.hahaha.secret ah!you read this,keep it to urself.hahaha!!

then we started laughing la.shutter became like comedy.too scary till it looked funny.haaha.what the girl ghost so strong all.spider man.can climb head first down the ladder.hahaha.

and i can be director la,can guess the next part one.ahha.but better not la,too scary man.

k,sunday soccer again.ahhaa last time we played,woo,drew 2-2.i was off form to the bloody core.barely touched the ball.cant run alreadi.fat!!

k,rewind yeah.the movie Click was touching.no doubt/haha.i love horror and love stories!and action too la.and comedy.aiya almost all types.but horror and love first.:D

take care people.especially those still in secondary school.dont work over time.not too hard yeah.pls be smart enough to save energy for bigger test and exams.if homework u cant finish by 10 or 11,pls continue the next day in school.its retarded to do till 1am and all.dont so extreme la.relax abit.enjoy ur youth man!hahaha.

see you. k,i think im going for the STC funfair.

-we'll get out till we get it right-

)': does that look like a crying face?haha.hope so.

i dreamt of genting.i know eugene was inside.dunno he came first or she.
but i dreamt of her!!ahhhh.in the dream,she gave me a surprise!haha.mann.i was so happy inside man i tell you.but when i woke up and rmb the dream,i was super sad.wish it came true.

i know for eugene ah,i brought him to the wrong roller coaster ride.supposed to be damn high up one.but it didnt even go high.only a bit onli.den finish.ahha.

for her,i know i was with her.supposed to sit the cork screw with her.when i got out,she wasnt beside me anymore.damn..

ahhhh!-retarded face-
its just a dream raphael!get over it!why get so down over a dream!right?you must be careful what you wish for too!yeah ok ,i will,(: thanks.



hahaahhaha.goodmornng!might be going joggin later.jogger sehh.kk i've got nth to say right now.im so shocked abt the dream.cuz it was sth updated.damn!!


oh ya ,one more thing.haha ytd leaving jos's house.first i kena poke on my arm,then i move again,kena poke at the back of my palm.then i look at my hand awhile,then scream.hahah.then jos say so loud,"its a cactus!" alamak i wearing contacts what,couldnt see properly.den eugene and shermann just laughed la.hahaha.wa freaking pain sia.plant also wanna attack me.tsktsktsk.


*& you can put the blame on me.

Happy Easter People. (:
alright it was a really weird way we spent our easter.the party wasnt really for our age.then my bros and i were doing nth in church.then they left for alameen.i went to shit.then join bradley gab desiree all.haahah go act stupid.run from police.well,they had car,and decided to chase two of the "fastest" runners.hahahah.no la.k the whole group of us ran,there was this left and right turning.all turning right.i shouted at bradley to turn left.cuz his psp with me.well,desiree and neil,who were bare footed,decided to follow.haaha.and so did the police.basket the pia in the car.damn fast.i and desiree beh tahan. gave up.i act playing psp.hahaha.i was in formal la.long sleeve,pants,loose black shoe.tie.haha.desiree bare foot.bradley excaped.basket.he jump down the grass.hahahaa.neil ah,while the police driving.the partner came out of the car.held neil.ahaha.then the driver drove after us.then talk cock.aiya long story la.im not proud of what happened.hahaa.i just find it ridiculous and funny.ran for nth.hahaha.

not say we did sth wrong also.i told the police we run for fun.cuz he asked for a relaly good reason.ahahha.i felt so stupid saying "huh,we ran for fun.really really,honest." hahahah.!!!

ok walking back at 5am plus.ambulance under some block.think its some malay dude la.one whole group of malays gathered.dunno what happened.i've seen enough of blue and red lights man.haha.

alright,see you people again soon!

:D

welcome to a new kind of tension,all across the alien nation.hmm hmm hmm.

nothing last forever,I'm sorry I can't be perfect.
& I took for granted the friend I have in you.

I was living for a dream,loving for a moment!


that day i asked about the happy or sad thing?rmb?of cuz i'll be happy.my EBF wouldnt want me to be sad.ebf always says "dont be sad okay??forget about everything.leave them behind.dont be sad anymore." EBF was really a good best friend.cared like noone else.even held me close and erased all worries from within.there were many other fantastic points abt ebf.ahhhh.damn!so hard!
but THANK YOU!dedicate this post to you.you were really great. :D





when there's a will,there's a way.

love my imaginery friend,sally.hahahah.!!k im being retarded,as always. :D
enjoy!

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

& I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
& I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven



H or S?happy or sad.hahah that was wat i used to ask close friends last time when i was young.childish.yeah and i would listen to them.see how i've let people control me.?even my mood and how i feel.it was really stupid.im so unlike my ex best friend.i shouldve gotta known my EBF more.i mean,we're no more now.i dunno if im supposed to be happier this way or sadder.and one more thing,its abt D.yeah.you got it.the first D la.its crazy.how do you do so many things while there is always this person's image and the things you all have done in the back of ur head??its so so hard.

at 18,i gotta admit love is really tough,and complicated.its simple and hard combined together.its simple to start man,hard to maintain.i THOUGHT i was strong.but damn,hell no.im so weak.a few words from EBF broke me man.totally.

but while i was with D,i really felt strong.i couldve done anything.i was so damn glad.when she left,i lost my strength man.everything.like some kinda superhero movie.maybe spiderman?my fav hero.when mary jane left,he was so sad he lost his powers as well.yeah.same here.

and im so sorry i keep being so sad and my chats are like shit now.to my bros,and joscelyn,and so on.sorry alright.but u should know how it feels like to have a real down mood.

and i get JEALOUS over small stuff.i've just been to confession and i wanna change again man.yes u've always seen me typing -i wanna change- or -i've change-.but i wanna be a better person all the time.nth is enough man.

mann.what am i talking abt?
anyway,its HOLY WEEK!non-catholics,dont understand,just shh.im not spreading a chain msg or sth.for catholics,hmm,pray (: and sacrifice.




one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind.

hands down,it was the most sincere thing i've ever heard,and it was really touching.
i finally know how much it hurts to not talk to your best friend for a day or two.
and finally i know how it feels like to be hurt by some one you love.
it was worse than a break up i swear.
but im alright(: talking things out is always the best solution. its not wrong to speak what u feel like speaking to the person who treats you like a best friend.and you'll know that person wont ever leave you.

hurt will just make the friendship stronger.in some sort of perspective. (:
damn,im getting some feelings back :D thought i'd lost them all.
why change for others?change only for yourself (: and treasure those that we have left.on your death bed,you will only need one hand to count the number of true friends you have.

im glad to have someone who speaks her mind.

damn,never knew it'll hurt so bad at first . haha.damn.emmanuel raphael soh soon chin.you rock!she rocks!


ok,went to collect my new specs just now.and got contacts.haha i just realised sth wrong abt the contacts.shit.hahaha.
and morning we went to medical,sth happened.and we got delayed.and it closed.HahhA knn.

mann,i'll appreciate you.i havent felt like this in a long while.

i swear,if i catch anyone bullying her,thats it for that person.i dont care how much more it'll hurt.

alright,bye people!

alright,enjoy this song.its my favourite. :D

be careful what you wish for,because you just might get it all. ok?
<3

hello!
STEP UP 2 was nice! :D hahah.almost got lost again.fortunately my cousin found me!hahaha.
watched it just now.the day before,watched p.s i love you.dont quite get it.

damn,am i used to getting hurt??hahah.i dunno.but im gonna be immuned to sth soon.hahaha.and its not good news.

how have u all been?

-its what you make out of what you've got!-

yeah.thats the line. and,be yourself.

anyone here likes having mixed feelings?well,i dont.damn.keep having mixed feelings these days.again!!!rmb??it happens annually.hahah.cursed?maybe.
its like feeling happy and sad at the same time.and sth else.
some said i've changed.yeeah i have.quite alot,in fact. awww..

alright,take care everybody.see you all when i do.
and dont forget,always think deep about sth.especially for problems.
when u cant seem to solve sth,or dont understand sth,relax,clear ur mind.leave it wide open.and think.reflect.alright?
smile!
just a little more love,i promise you that. :D

yo!kinda disaster today.haah.had fun at first,was out with b.
well my mood was bad.good den bad.then mixed.i hate HATE mixed feelings!gonna be emo for awhile (: sorry.
watched ps i love you/didnt get the story.was a bit distracted,haha.
loads happened.some were not planned.today was a little unfair to me. ): awww.

(i held your hand and sat there knowing that we'll make it through.) (:

hello! (:
wa alphonsus ah,he was like emmanuel,someone looking for you.i ask who?girl or boy?he said girl.i asked,young or old?he said young,really. i thought genevieve or what.but it was my mum.ka le kong ah.so young wanna fake me.it was after mass la.

then he also damn sarcastic la.i say who is that young guy in pri 5 huh.he say his father."my fahter pri 5 what."

ni nao hia.hahah so young alreadi sarcastic.

wa after mass,go loy kee with bernard,joel,eugene,auntie teresa,and me.then soccer.then go gab's house steamboat.wa eat eat eat.soccer sandwiched in between.no use.ahhha.had loads of fun at gab's house.
it was disaster.i ate a meat that desmond spat out.eugene ate a meat ball that dropped on the floor.the meat ball fell into the fire one,cuz he suppose to take for me,then drop inside.then he throw at joel.joel put in his bowl.he didnt know.hahaha.
then eugene also smashed butter on the damn stove!HAHAHHA.on the outside.hahah.then joel,he removed the whole toilet door.HAHAAHA.nah ma.damn funny.we laughed till cant eat.
then we played cards.it was real fun.and saw desiree's bday gift from mocha,got sad when i saw someone;s name there.whats worse,before that,i missed 4 of that person's call.i tried calling her back,but i knew she was asleep.damn.my battery.it sucks.its not the first time.
im sorry friend.






I've got your picture in my wallet,and your phone number to call it.And I miss you more whenever I think about you.I've got your mixed tape in my walkman,been so long since we've been talking.And in a few more days,we'll both hook up forever and ever.

alright!just came back from genting!hahaha.shiok.cold cold eh.

kk first day,at the immigration point,i amde fun of the chinese guy behind me.damn smelly sial.say he smell like sour cream and onion.eat the snake,dog meat all.hahahha.really,freaking early in the morning,had to smell that.joel and lexine as well.we kept laughing.
then one monk talk to him,.marcus and moses friend ah.monks.
joel and i kept gossiping abt him la.the smelly guy.then joel stare at him.he talk to us.say the queue very long all.i say "ya.the smell also"then i kept shouting smelly.ahhaha.kaakaa onli eh.


hahah.outing with servers are alwasy cool,and always have sth new.and always mad.

:D

the cashier at one checkpoint ah,putting the reseipt inside the machine.i tot its change sial.i stick out my hand.kena jag.oh,and i saw lovely,martin,and allen there too.hahah they had sch outing or sth like that.so good right,riverside sec.
then bus got game and movie.play the game till got hand cramp sial.no joke.damn pain.then almost CRIED in the coach.hahah if i were alone or if the movie was any sadder.i'd burst out crying.bridge to sth.terabithia or sth.wa lan eh.my tears at the tip alreadi.but pai seh la.cant just cry like that.later they think i gila.siao siao.

hahaha.reached there,anthony and desmond came sean's and my room.so on the two bed combined,got four people napping.des,sean,me,ant.then des forgot to zip his pants.and he was beside me.basket.they tell me to be careful.HAHAH.then had some guy jokes.!hahaha.damn funny.

k then wanted to go into raymond's or jeremy's room la.basket.i ring wrong bells.ahhAHAH.two wrong doors.lucky never open.had loads of fun on the first day.watched movie all.10,000 BC.at 130am i think.hahaha.

k next day.one highlight in the room ah.sean bending down to put the glass down.i bang the door damn loud.he bigit.almost dropped the glass.hahaha.
theme park.best ever man.balls disappeared after that .too scary.three rides that were the worse were the corkscrew.then the one they bring u really damn high,then let go.and another roller coaster ride.wa lan eh.the trick ah,is to bring u goddamn high,then let go.oh viking also.wa lan.no balls.they let u dropped.....thats it.balls drop.i always shout NO NO NO and AHH I CANNOT ALREADI.then will cover my face with the gloves.hahaha.we all bought gloves. :D

k was really shacked.last day.so,i wear sunglass,on music.(it was abt 1am,i think.lost track of timing)so i peng san awhile.sean watching tv.then he suddenly turn and whack me.say "you suntanning ah/and off the music!im watching a movie!"hhahaha.nag only eh.buayy.

oh and you know what.secret alright.my saliva dripped and my pants and the handle bar got wet when i sat on the one that brought u high up and let u go.hahha.it was abt 20 storeys high.worse than suicide i guess,.this one bounces back up,and there u go again,going back down.suicide,u just go straight down.u wont stop on the ground,but continue.cuz,u cant go to heaven when its a suicide (:
when we going up,raymond,bernard and i holding hands.hahah reach the top,cannot alreadi.can see mountains all.but i cant tahan.wanna die le.

kk last day ah,woke up.first thing i did was fart.gave sean warning first.hahaha.it was loud and cute.buay ta han.hahaha.got tune one k.
then coming home.pit stop.i almost went girls toilet.tot the guy want me to buy sth wat.then i say no thanks.then walk straight.then one woman was like that is female one.in chinese la.hahah.then i kena jag,smile smile all.

basket,breakfast ah.at the buffet.one guy working there is bapok sial.damn sick.imagine u eating breakfast int he morning.sleepy sleepy.then u see one bloody gay bastard in the place.sick man.

oh,outing with bestie rocked :D before she left for camp.haha.day before i think.the one where she drew the map for me.hahaha.


i've lied to you a couple of times before.you were the best for me.my first true -. im not sure if im your first true -.

oh my gosh.had bad dreams man!hahah.last night i falling asleep,suddenly jerk awake.hahha.so funny.
k one of my dreams ah,was that i murdered someone from church in causeway point!but noone saw,nor knew it happened.shit.damn.i hate the details.shall not say.
i was so scared la,cuz police were definitely gonna come,i wake up,still scared.i thought it really happened. ):
then the other dream,went to this restaurant or what.then i tried using a knew tooth brush.wa i tell u,si bei tua liap.damn big sial the tooth brush.after brushing.i rinse my mouth.one by one my teeth drop!shit.five dropped in total.then i smiled in the mirror to see how i looked like.oh my gosh.HAHAH.woohoo.ho sei.
):

den msges woke me up.hahah.kk later going out.will be going tiong first.3.40pm.see you there. :D


an empty street,an empty house.a hole inside my heart.
im all alone.the rooms are gettin smaller.

i wonder how,i wonder why,i wonder where they are.
the days we had,the songs we sang together.oh yeah.

and oh my love,im holding on forever.
reaching for a love that seem so far.
so i say a little prayer.hope my dreams
will take me there,where the skies are blue,
to see you once again,my love.
over seas from coast to coast,to find a place i love
the most.where the fields are green,to see you once again,my love.

i tried to read,i go to work.
im laughing with my friends.
but i cant stop to keep myself from thinking.
oh no.

i wonder how,i wonder why.i wonder where they are.
the days we had,the songs we sang together.oh yeah.

and oh my love.im holding on forever.im reaching for a love
that seem so far.
so i say a little prayer.and hope my dreams
will take me there.where the skies are blue,to see you once again.
over seas from coast to coast,
to find a place i love the most,where the fields are green,
to see you once again.

to hold you in my arms,to promise you my love.to tell you
from my heart.you're all im thinking of.

im reaching for a love that seem so far.
so i say a little prayer.hope my dreams
will take me there,where the skies are blue,
to see you once again,my love.
over seas from coast to coast,to find a place i love
the most.where the fields are green,to see you once again,my love.

say your little prayer.dreams will take me there.where the skies are blue to
see you once again.over seas from coast to coast,to find a place i love
the most.where the fields are green,to see you once again,my love.




i'd rather you take a gun and shoot me right where the heart is and let me die,than letting me survive with an ever bleeding heart.

"You are Yellow by Coldplay. You are a kind loving person that really care about that one special person you love. You will probably do almost anything for them as well. Your heart is compelled forward towards passion and love and will most likely not stop until you get that. "

hahha yellow by coldplay is supposed to be desiree's song.for some reason.ahem!

k that was what the facebook said when i took the -what song are you?- thing.
for the marvel thing,im spiderman.my fav hero la.but what rubbish.so many of these things.hahaha.oh and soccer player,im steven gerrard.i bet there wasnt a lampard in the thing.

good morning everyone!just woke up.last dream was bad,woke me up.haizzzzzzzzzz!!!.
hahha.mann,everyone's in school,young and old.im stuck in the middle.no worries,got my bros later! :D waiting for their call.
waiting for your call i'm sick.call im angry.call im desperate for your voice. ;)



ohHHH!!!!you know what!i alreadi know of two gays going to my course!!!!my goodness.from st gabriel!!one not so chia lat.the other is scary.shit la.pray for them k?and for me as well of cuz.
one ah,so big,muscular,my age.cant shave cuz mother dont allow.the other,is really bapok.what the gua.HAHAHAH/

hahah hello hello!
ok two days ago,went out with joscelyn,anthony and eugene!hahah.it was pure madness.
we went old interchange to change my jeans.then went to town,i got one more jeans,and eugene and i got new soccer shoes!nike!hahah.his is christiano's.cool.
mine's erm.i dunno who wear la.who cares.haha.
k then went bishan,jos had to catch a movie with the 16yr olds.hahha.or 17??same la.
so we ate there first,cafe cartel.when she left,eugene,ant and i still eating.oh man.
if you were there.ice cream would have leaked out from your nostrils man.we kept laughing and laughing.must be the brandy in the FIRST ice cream.
basket.so bloody full,then got 3 scoop ice cream come.i thought no more.suddenly,one 8 scoop ice cream come.we died man.ahahah!we had to play open number!HAHAHAHAHA eugene play damn funny.we kept interrupting!!!HAHHAA.anthony spat out the ice cream la.hahah.first time,we play open number,anthony kena.so must put one whole scoop in.
then eugene and i ten times scissors paper stone.HAHAHA his first words were ji ko pak.HAHAHAA.wa lan eh,cant take it.then he lost in the end!!!hahaha.so he had to eat one full scoop.i didnt need to force myself to eat!!hahaha.thank u thank u.
wa i havent finish my N----- story la.he dont allow me to,too funny.he say must eat first.then after that,i forgot to complete.hahaha!wa we play with the ice cream and raisin ah,damn funny.swear.everything was funny.hahaha.

then soccer at night,then stayed in church with jos and anthony and eugene till 2 or 2 plus i think.2plus am la.then jos left for thailand. ):
then ytd ate lunch with anthony and eugene.kept laughing again.ahhaha.everyime i eat with them ah.meant for eating together.haha kk then they went keith house.i jogged with genevieve.not the young one.haha.the NYP one.then marcus house.then soccer.then al-ameen which sucked.then went shermann house with eugene and marcus till 3am.my house there got accident.hahaha.
wa in shermann house we eat again.we JOKE AGAIN.always cant eat in peace man.hahha.got tom-yam in our noses.haha.wa really damn funny.we had small time gambling there.hahaha.

its been,if not the most,one of the happiest weekend ever man.laugh all the way. :D
oh!!!got bonus to my happiness.im on talking terms with two people again.hahah. :D
(pls get your facts right before spreading rumours!(: )


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